There is a God!

Ohhhhh my goodness, God works in the most mysterious ways.  I honestly thought I would never be in the position that I am in right now and I am not going to fuck this up.  I haven't felt this way about a girl since highschool!  The nerves, the sweat, the small talk that I stumble over! Ayayay, all those days of sitting next to her and not knowing her name, all those days we've smirked together, and finally.  The sea has parted and there is a direct path for me to take. 

I haven't been this excited: nervous: hopeful: scared: anxious: in a while

This can work :)

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Welcome back

I'm down from the clouds now. I'm back in reality and I've realized I can't lose my footing or I would lose everything I worked for.

Just a warning, maxwell.

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Life is good Dudes & Dudettes

So everything is working out great thus far. I basically nailed a spot on the morale committee because I just blew away my interviewer. So I'm really really hoping that I get a call on October 4th. Greek Sing went great. The judges were glad to give us a long performance because our audition amazed them.  And I'm really digging my partner. I have to say i must have a thing for these petite girls because that's where my taste is right now.

I've also decided to study abroad for an ENTIRE SEMESTER next year in florence, italy. I am so pumped for that it's not even funny. and along with that i've decided to major in marketing and double minor in ppsychology and international business so i'm just genuinely happy of where i am in life right now. Plus! Mr. Schreyer has decided to donate 4.5 million dollars to sig ep and redo our entire house!!! can things get any better?

honestly, it's like mania or something!

Ah! and MAE is back!!!! it keeps getting better!

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Don't Do Drugs, kids.

I don't get people sometimes.  We're so overtaken by emotion that the irrational becomes rational. We're so easily swayed, dude. I guess if your engulfed in something it's kind of tough to get out of it.

Apparantly, we need to look both ways before we cross.

I'm just so lost in thought right now. What could've been is no longer because of a really stupid, dumb mistake.

I feel like I need to go pond surf or something... maybe a 20 footer.

woweewowowwowow

Alright. Here's me trying to recap this weekend.

Friday: I think I woke up in a relationship...
Saturday: Woke up in time to make it to the first Penn State game of the season...
Sunday: Woke up with some interesting stories...
Monday: I woke up with a pile of work to do...

Ok, on another note, some people suprise me. There has always been a group of people that I would categorize in my mind as nonconformists. I always saw them as the kids who listen to underground indie/punk/folk music that only they have heard of. They drink casually and they express themselves in the way they dress. They're willing to try anything that seems out of the ordinary or that shies away from the pop-culture eye of america. I always figured they were people that loved their view of life and they didn't care what everyone thought of them. I looked up to that. But I found out the latter of that paragraph is not a whole truth.

Two of my roommates could be described as what I wrote above. But one of them and his friends suprised me.  They love to talk about taboo-ish subjects that they might think would rattle a small town catholic boy. They talked down on my religion because theirs not enough proof. They say that the Catholic Church has been corrupt since it was created. They say that it just doesn't add up. Well, I'm not the best speaker and sometimes it's tough to defend something that ultimately ends in just having Faith but I tried my best to just let them know that there is a greater being out their that wants us to love one another.  Unfortunately, they've turned atheism into a religion.  They also looked down on my love for sports and physical activity. They scoffed at the fact that I enjoy penn state athletics and have sports video games. They ridiculed me for being in a fraternity saying that I'm paying for friends. Some of that is true but the majority of what I pay to be in the fraternity is going towards other organizations that I find through the fraternity. They only understood the common view of a "Frat". The drinking, the parties, the girls. They don't see the nonprofit organizations, the brotherly love, or the fact that there are lifetime friendships and memories that can come out of it. I was judged all night by my clothes, my hairstyle, and even my posters in my room!

What I'm trying to get at is, I always looked at those kids who think outside of the box and don't follow all the mainstream bullshit as good people who found what they want in this world. Last night kind of brought my perception of them into a darker light. They seemed unhappy, offensive, and repulsed that I enjoy life even though I'm more mainstream than them. I'm suprised that they were so set on what they believe that they actually frowned upon some of my interests despite me being all ears to their interests. I catered them with hsopitality. But they look at me like i'm some sort of mold. That i'm just like those other people.

It's frustrating knowing that I looked up to people that looked down on me.

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